1st of September

Argh.. Life's hard, sometimes i mean. Have been quite emotional over things lately, seriously it is killing me. Heartache, i feel like run away. Anyway, i've gone better now :) You know what? When you're sad, upset and disappointed, nothing can make you feel better except someone who mean so much to you. What if the one doesn't turn up? Self-healing will do.

Back to business, on the 1st of september, me and bun ( Kexin ) had a date. We planned to go Wondermilk but too bad it closed. So we went to Empire Mall to have our brunch! HAHA so fun :D There's no much car on the road.

i know this photo is very failed, but here it is, The Vanilla Place.


















high tea set for two :)
yummy!



i love the tiny macaroons~! yummy!
Oh ya, we constantly laughing while talking on our topic!
So happy :D




after finishing our set, i order myself Pavlova :)
this is superb! Now i truly believe that dessert can eventually hyper ur mood.
Happy happy! Btw, kexin ordered herself alio olio too!
Forget to take photo of the spaghetti because we're too busy eating! :D



Our tummy-s are totally bloated! FEEL SO GOOD :D
we hang over some places in the mall before heading home.



we dress almost the same w/o planning.
What a coincidence :3

11.7.11

i miss you.

ARGHHHH!

ps:// this is an anigif image

OH NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOoo!
I failed the hill part :((((( SHIATTTT
stupid jojo :(



anyway, after on the road test, i PASS! & uncle drove me to the bf's hrs and we had lunch together :)
still, i wasted my parents money :( SORRY

神經化

我最近很不開心
整個人很情緒化
動不動就胡思亂想
我很辛苦
不懂要找誰訴苦
我的知己太遠了
我需要一個擁抱
我需要一個人來安慰我
我需要一個人每分每秒幫助我
我需要更多的勇氣
我需要motivation
我真的很需要一個人了解我的狀況
領導我邁向對的路
我需要一個對的指引
不想再聽到責罵
不想再待在這個地方
我很害怕
我的心情很亂
我不知道我自己想什麼
我很討厭現在的自己
我一直告訴自己要撐著

林祖兒﹐這只是你長大的一個挑戰
加油
我不會放棄﹐永遠都不會

sigh..

if you ask me whats the most torturing stuff in the world?
i bet the answer that appear in my mind now is...when my phone cant call out, cant text :(
I'm my hubby's subline, thats why..
its kinda sad when we cant contact anytime we want to :(
when i miss him damn a lot, i cant call
when i need his comfort, i cant call
how sad...
i miss him la :*(

anywhere, tmr went kl again ._.
for facial & manicure padicure..
ive not cleaning my face in saloon like for ages x_x

ps:// sorry for the lame post ppl, ive not camera to snap photo :(
pathetic life!

明天我就毕业了。

我的天啊。明天我就毕业了。
说真的，我真的真的很不舍。想回去，好像才刚刚考完PMR。怎么一下子就毕业了呢？:*(
虽然我不喜欢校规的束缚，不喜欢 'ngam cam' 的校长，不喜欢无礼的老师，讨厌学校的拉拉，讨厌七早八早起来，讨厌乏闷的 POL，讨厌addmaths， 可是比起讨厌，我对这五年来的喜欢更多。

我们班很幸运，班导是 Firdaus，班长是 MengHern。老师多数都是好的，当然是除了 ‘黑猩猩’。
班上的大小事务都由我们的班长负责，副班长真的是废的。我们这些普通人过着无忧无虑的日子，什么也不用烦。有MengHern真好。

虽然我们班是第一班，看起来好像很厉害读书酱，尤其是那些Kai Yan & JeenVern等。不认识她们真的不懂她们有几废，有几无聊。虽然不是跟每一个同学都熟，可是我至少都和3/4的班友感情不错下。想一下以后不能听到Dylan的吵杂声，不能像以前全部人一起zat Goh Edric。。好像真的会很怀念。

我个人呢，最不习惯的将会是每天不能见到老Tine咯！那个女人每天在弄我笑，都是她在跟我闹！那个XingTi也是，以后可能不能每天躺她，不能欺负她了 ：*( YanNi，没有一个人的表情可以好像她酱丰富，光看她的样子你都可以笑爆！KenKe，在我们当中的乖女孩，她每天准时完整功课，上课时听课，但是一起gossip绝少不了她 XD A Mei呢，这个真的超猛！记得以前你的学校三步曲 ：睡觉，照镜子，上厕所！但是她的成绩一直都是很好的！她也很好笑，我真的很喜欢她~
haih，真的会很舍不得。

“肥到死” = firdaus :D
最好的班导啦！我的kelakuan在sijil perhentian sekolah才拿memuaskan =.=
都是因为袜子短，迟到的小罪名。
谢谢他咯，把我的等级变baik =D
他这个人很随便，所以很容易相处。
说起来，我们也满熟的 XD



小学到现在的好朋友，臭老TINE! =D




我的超级好朋友！XingTi :D
她真的是我遇到最善良的~




最容易被误会的人，Yanni :D
她什么都放在心里的，她很懒得解释 xD
还好现在我很了解她了！哈哈




陈可可！！我喜欢她水水的肉 XD
更喜欢她这个人 =)



A Mei !! :D:D
我的好朋友 ；) 她真的很可爱的！since 你这么努力，希望你拿 full As 啦“妹妹”！





thong thong!! 今年受伤的朋友，受伤的理由更好笑！哈哈 XD




盐盐！
又能读，又能玩的朋友！=D




我的蔡嘉仪！！
虽然不同班，可是我还是酱爱她！！！
muaaksxs!!

都不懂明天会怎样的。。
我一定会哭到很惨吧？:*((
就让我们一起把这美好的五年做个最美丽的结局吧。
现在的我只可以那么说。
我的华语烂，如果你不明，就对不起咯！xD

God bless us :)♥

im just so pissed

dammit, so wad can i do now?
consume more desserts to make the stress of mine terbalik-ed?
i just dunno why im so pissed recently, even myself hates myself FML
there're doze of chores to do, yet i got no mood and no force to do it
study? i tried hard to bump my head into the books.
im just reading. reading it without it entering my holly brain
i need some sweatings

Another day out :O

Okay! I went to starhill today..again ! AHA!! we're looking for cheap yet nice foodie around here ._.
LOLs!! hmm, let's see.. this is the restaurant which having the same offer like shook ! :D:D
every dishes cost only RM3.60!!! wohooo :D
we ordered bout 14plates and here they are :D

this is my sissy :D

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Looking kinda nice right? but actually SO NOT NICE TT
i feel like crying eating these stuff :((((
cant even compare with shook!
so people, DO NOT COME HERE!

the sink which amazed me a lot & a lot! woah! you know how do it works?
it only gives out water when the wheel is turning :O
so cool ! :D

After our very not nice lunch, 5 of us have our shopping in pavillion. Grandma & four of us :D
There's balloon art festival there.. place is decorated with many balloons & ballons modal :D
love it so much :D

& i got myself a new water bottle :D!

Personally thinks that..my blog is kinda dead with those photos hmm?
blur and in low quality :(( so sad bout this.. haih
i want this camera blady much !!! olympus pen-el 1 <3
which cost 2480 currently.. x_x

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vanness wu !! :D:D:D
i love the ear piercing of his ! me want :D:D



& HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!

imisseugenelahh :(

Like a non-stop nightmare

I dunno why im being so emo recently.. weird.
I dunno how to express my feelings by words, but it's just totally sucks!
I dun like the feeling frigging much ;(
being ignored & wad's more?
Im feeling so lonely at night, thinking bout they are so being so partially,
the way they treat me & the latter. so sad..
we got no argues..but no network either
我 不 要 这 样

ha mi lai?

HELLOO HELLOOO, this is going to be a lame post, so just ignore me :D

Im feeling so not good these two nights. Its like..I'll be so quiet suddenly? I feel like myself macam dah transparent or invisible. Im like no more important in my family. There're only 2 daughters for her. Lim Jia-E and Lim EE EE. He is recently so busy with his work and so do her. I remember ytd when i ask them about the new camera that i wish to buy by myself. & suddenly, pop out smt blady hurtful from her.

"You think you're very pro is it? have to buy so xpensive one! buy you those hundred plus de already very kind for you!!"

This may not be a big matter for others, but yes do I. & to those camera maniac like me? I really just dunno why am i so addicted to cameras although im like wad she say, im not those pro one. but so? i got interest with it, so i seriously wish her to watch out what she want to say before she speaks out. ;( & yes of cz, that one i mention to them is bout 2k, olympus pen e-el 1. its so freaking coooool lahh.

They always ask me why i dont really talk with them. I will just remain silence behind and say nothing. Im kinda speechless lah. Everytime i talk to them, they do reply me, but with just "ohhh.. emmm..yalahh.." I really wanna share them everything in school and wads happening on me but they seems like not so interested with it. so, jojo just diam la. what for to make noise there right?

& i realised they always judge people on what they see. Im always in front of the pc & sms-ing all the time. Im not doing hmw. Im cooking porridge in room late night. These are wad they see. They just judge me & naggggggggggg me acc to wad they have seen. Normal right? But i just want to tell you i do really put effort on my studies okay?

haih, watever, these are just thoughts that pop out suddenly. Im still so happy with my life. I am still the cheerful one. Because i'll always forget wad had happen ytd when i wake up the next pretty day.

Today's note!

i meet my darling today at spicy :D:D:D we talked a lot & had fun also lah~!! ♡ ♡♡ He gave me presents from krabi :D 3 cute fridge magnet!! love you baby~ ♡

Its time to be hardworking again. ADDMATHS! BM WORKS & ETC ETC!!

I really want to buy a new camera :(
my english damn suckayy! :D
my blog sucks without photos

A Sad Story

Hot stuff from fb, some may have read it. So, for those who have not. Just squuze ur few mins time & read this.

To those who are married, .. Not married .. and soon to be married, I hope you will be touched with this story... MARRIAGE When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce.. I raised the topic calmly. She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Dew. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her! With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Dew so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now. The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Dew. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again. In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage. This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that everyday for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning.. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request. I told Dew about my wife's divorce conditions.. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.. My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office. On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time.. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her. On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Dew about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily. Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head. Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mum out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I do not want the divorce anymore. She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead.. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart. That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead. The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage! If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you. If you do, you just might save a marriage. Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.


so what's on your mind now?

current mood : Im sick. GAHHHHH

shitness, im sick .___. flu + a lil bit of coughing. hate it!
& actually im in front of the lappy, typing my essay & gonna save it into pendrive soon :D
teacher asked me to correct my mistakes & she's going to post it up to the school magazine!!
woahhh ! :D new thing to me :D
im not that good actually .__.
HAHAHAHA!! :/

IR is coming soon :S i got myself a dress & now still seaching for high heels!
yeah, high heels !! HIGH heels .__.
dun care arr, i wanna make myself taller :D:D:D:D

byebeybyye~!
continue my writing stuff :D
i miss my camera :(

aww, me so funei !

gosh, this is the second post of the day.
marmee saying im not responsible in doing my own chores. I did agree for wad she said, same do my darling :( haih. i lost my camera on friday or saturday, which really annoyed me to the max! I think those who really know me understand why i feel so, right? Camera is really part of my life, big big part..*sobs
i love camwhore & snapping photos! how am i gonna do my blog & my daily life memories without it? idk.. Before this my mummy spent RM400 for fixing it. damn
though its not those pro or cool camera, but i really feel so bad right now ;*(

& another thing, my ex phone! the samsung wan :( its actually from my dad. & yea form4 that time i dhk, i drop it into the school toilet bowl when im changing .__. although lalat kenyi help me to fix it, but after some time, it died too :(

wad can i say now is,
i really hope my friend accidentally took my camera & he or she will return to me soon :(




& the to buy stuff, im so so so O.O when i see lao tine's fb update!
she got the samsung corbee phone which me & her love so much! arrhh, gonna save money!




im so into the colour of this phone, so so so striking!
i love the pink one :O
money money, i need money! TT